Waiting

Waiting next to the phone,
Always wishing it would ring,
And maybe it would be you.
But I'm scared you will just
Leave and never come back.

My heart aches for you,
But I can't say how I feel,
I have to keep it bottled
Up, deep in my heart,
Somewhere the sun
Never shines (or ever will)

I'm afraid of who I am,
And I'm afraid that you
Don't understand all the
Things in my head and
You'll just be too scared
To love me ever again.

But my life feels like a
Nightmare, day, night,
They're all the same.
I feel like no one will
Love me again as long
As I'm stuck like this.

All I want is to love you
With all my heart even
If I can't love myself.
I'll never leave you,
The thought's never,
Ever crossed my mind.

I'm sorry for all the
Trouble I've caused,
I just want to make
You happy forever.

I don't know how
To live without you,
But I'll learn how
If I have to leave.

I don't think it's
Possible, but it's
Your decision and
I'll be here, forever,
Waiting for you.